Loveless

I had my first love .

My first love broke my heart 

I pretend to be strong infront of my friends 

and they dont really knows how I feel 

They asked me ,

and I told them "We're broke up" with a big smiley face

and try to change topic .

that's smile is not the real smile .

that's real hurts .

I don't want to show out my feels so purposely.

I just drop a hint on my Facebook or Twitter .

I just want to see who really cares me , yeah, there's got

but why am I still feel suffering.

they can't help me.

I don't want to find my brothers to be my counselor .

i mean they just wont be my HEART RELAXER .

I know they will feel weird to talking about this shit .

You gave me love 

you gave me memories 

I keep those memories

I miss you 

I miss those memories 

I'm a idiot to love you .

you're just my first love.

but why I just feel you're my true love .

every moment im just think of you .

every night i just watch your photo and cry .

i dont know why ?

I feel im just so stupid

I wish I could find someone ,

who can really share all my problem to him or her .

I dont know why i just don't feel like sharing my things to you .

i'm sorry

Yo to myself

Hey Peeps!

I feel so forever alone for myself.

I wonder got anybody are reading my blog now lol.

by the way , im gonna write a story right now .

A girl , who I met .who I love . and she love me too .

I gave her first kiss , and she gave me too .

yeah , i love her a lot .

Everytime we hang out , with friends. we just act like friend .

I dont want too ,but she just ask for me to do that  .

after 11 months something , we finally can go out just both of us .

It's finally.

I hope that will come one day , so it's finally .

but just for once .

I miss those memories , i miss your kiss , i miss your hug ,i miss you're everything .

we already one month didn't met .

 You asked me don't meet you before your examination.

it's okay for me .

I can wait .

when we text , you ask me to wait .

okay, i wait . you want study or  what .I don't know .

but come on , you just can't find a day for accompany me?

when I need you , where are you?

when i miss you , where are you ?

when i tell you I love you , you didn't reply the same thing that I want.

you said you want chit-chat with your family.

you want stop texting.

come one, you just can't while text while chat ?

I know ,  your family is important than me , this is fact.

but please , i just want you accompany  me. 

We almost break up , because I'm so toilful to be like that.

so, I keep thinking negative  because of you .

I try to calm down that time .

so, I did it .

I try to positive .

I did it.

But just now, You make me unhappy because of one thing .

I ask you ,after your exam , can we hang out .

the first thing she say :yes .

Ohhhh i'm so happy , after that she say : with bunch of friends .

its okay . I'm okay with that .As least I can see you .

but after that , she say : but you can't touch .

I say : why ?Hold hand also can't ?

she say : Yeah , can't sorry.

I ask why again .

she said :I don't like .

dafuq?

This mean you don't like me to hold your hands ?

To hug you ?

include Kiss you?!

at the first time i go out with you , you don't let me hold your hands .

i tot you scared will let your friends see.

my Thought was wrong .

I'm sorry , that I hold your hands .

I'm sorry ,that I hugs you.

I'm sorry ,that I kiss you.

I dont want to let you know how I feel .

no.

I don't know how to let you know how I feel .

how I tell you ?

Hey I'm not happy because I can't touch you ?

I'm not happy because I can't hug you ,kiss you , hold your hands?

dafuq is this ?

No!I'm not happy is because , WE JUST LIKE A FRIEND .

I DON'T TO BE LIKE A FRIEND

WE'RE COUPLE.

WE CAN MEET IN ONE MONTH AT LEAST 10 TIMES.

WE CAN HAVE A LOT FUN TIMES TOGETHER .

WE CAN DO ANYTHING WE LIKES WE WANT.

but NOT .

we just like a friend text everyday .

when we talking on phone .

You say you're boring.

because of I keep asking you the same thing? or i don't know  ?

if its was like that ? okay i'm sorry for being so annoying .

I just want to talk more longer ,find something to talk , find some topic .

pulling longer the time for having the time with you .

if we close the conversation  , I'll just have to wait again.

waiting you to let me call you again .

Come on ,I don't want be like a friend .

It's make me feel so lonely .

It's make me feel like I lost a girlfriend .

I feel like crying .

 I hates those FEEL! 

Don't give me those feel please .

That time you asked me got go PESS IU day anot .

Yeah I got go .

And I ask you , who you going with?

BOYS' Friend

Fine .

last time, you go Pavillion ,I also going  ,but not going together and join together .

I ask who you going with  , you tell me you going with BOYS only .

Woah , BOYS , you didnt invited me plus just going with boys ?

After the day we at Pavillion , You call me , and I ask you got how many people theres?can i go find you ?

You told me one ,my heart start being pain .feel like heartbreak like that , maybe that is jealousy power ?

I ask to go find you , I'm worry because you're just you and one boy over there .

I don't want just you two over there .

so i wanna to find you , even my friends are here .

but you say : dont come ,I'm Serious .

F**k

Do you think I'm don't care about this !?

hell no .

After he go back , you can call me to find you right?

no , you didnt . you didnt tell me you go back home ady .

I feel like breaking up . But I don't want too .

this make me FUCKED UP everyday .

I'm done

Why?

天啊，为什么我要的东西，我却得不到手？

今年的篮球比赛，虽然我进了校队.

那有什么用，有什么好？

不是一样得个吉？

我不是一样，好像旁边的观众一起看比赛罢了

虽然我的队员拼了命，取了第二名

可以进 inter zone 

但教练说要import 两个人来我们组

而且要替两个人出队

我肯定是我的了啦 :)

我真的很想进场像你们一样拼了名

我懂我不能，对不起

我承认我不强

不是我不要变强

不是我不要练球

不是我偷懒

而是交通问题和另一个问题

所以我不能常常去练球

我真的很想像我的偶像一样"Jeremy Lin"

但这不是我真真的梦想

跳舞还是我的第一个梦想

跳舞，舞蹈

我真的真的想成为很厉害的跳舞者

为什么？

为什么我还是得不到？

也是同样的问题让我不能进步

我不贪心，我只是二选一

做不到篮球手，做马来西亚第二舞者

希望我能梦想成真吧

Baby girl , I don't care how you think about me .

I just want you to know , How Much I really love you .

How Much I really need you .

I need you to trust me ,I need you to support me .

your love is making me Powerful 

If you ever leave me ,I don't know who still is caring me ?

I don't have much friend , but they don't really know how to care me as you did

I LOVE YOU BABY

Short Blog

I don't know what am I thinking to my friends

In this group, I feel i'm the "smallest"

I wish they know what's my feeling are .

I hope that one day when I found a work 

and Having more new and awesome friends.

2 more days , Basketball Competition is on the way!

Today I playing B'ball with them ,

They just like not trusting me ,

It's okay then :) 

I trust you guy and myself can already :)

I hope that we can win the CHAMPION :)

and Hey , I'm sorry about last night .

So sorry that I make you cry .

I promise you, no more next time .

I just love you ,You always the only one in my heart.

I love you baby girl .

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I'm Not Afraid !, I just don't Dare

Hey , everyone !! :D

GOOD NEWS that I'm back for blogging 

BAD NEWS that I'm forgot what should I write now :o

Let's talk about 2012 new life .

Hmmmmm , I feel like everything just like changing so fast :D

And the TIME passed fast ,I just realized I'm 16 now !

Back to the PMR result , This time PMR nobody will FAILED subject! haha

I can't believe my stupid BM can get C hahaha!

seriously UNBELIEVABLE! haha

Hmmmm , now im studying ACCOUNTANT, EKONOMI , ADD MATHS

Let's be a business man!haha

Maths can't killed me, I killed maths!:D

 Hey , I miss you , I miss your voice , I miss your everything :)

we been almost 1 month didn't go out together already :D

SAD case :P

You with your friends , I don't dare to stand beside you .

I want call you , sad case, I don't dare.

Sorry for not dare :(

hmmmmm , what should I say now?haha

OKAY! ILOVEYOU BABY GIRL :P I TELLS THE WORLD! :P

Chinese New Year coming soon! :D

I want take a lot a lot a lot ANGPAUSSSSS

I want go a lot a lot a lot house to take! :D

with you :)

PLAY FIREWORKS! :D

LONG TIME DIDN'T PLAY !:D

Hope we can take angpausss together uh! :D <3

WISH YOU ALL HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR and ALWAYS-BE-HAPPY

Happy is best MEDICINE for the whole WORLD :D

tata! :D  

Hey Hey Hey :)

Hellooooo Blogger!Long time noo blog blog ar :P

Nahhh,Im not gonna types asians WORDS? :P

Hmmmm ,WTH my BRAIN have nothing to write!? :o

okay got it! :P

November started :D #beenalongtime

And their birthday Passed....:)

Maybe I can say November is best month ?:)

I spend my time to hang out with friends and You :D <3

Okay , Let's talk about today :D

Today is November 12th 

We planned to watch this movie at Pavillion :D

You are apple of my eye

那些年，我们一起追的女生

It's look damn NICE!

Everyone proved this movie are DAMN AWESOME

This movie talking about teenagers!  :D

But too bad!When I reached Pavillion....

And I go to the CINEMA

My face become like OHMYSHIT!

The ticket SOLD OUT !!

Give it a DAMN :o

I stand a side and wait them reach Pavillion.

In the first, I reached Pavillion first , they are on the way:)

Sooo I thought I wanna buy ticket first ........

Unfortunately, the TICKET SOLD OUT. :(

It's okay , we can watch it another day! :D RIGHT?!

My love one send a message to me and she said they coming to the cinema :D

But I just don't know how to tell them the ticket are sold out :o

Im thinking "hmmm, maybe can watch other movies?"

Okay, I just be a brave-man tell them :o

When MyLoveOne reached :D

Awwwww She so BEAUTIFUL <3

Im gonna fainted :P haha just kidding :D

But really PRETTY :D 

When we met,I just tell them the ticket sold out and ask them wanna watch others?

They just like "Aish,I came here for nothing?" #JustMyImagination :P 

Okay then, I asked them"wanna watch TinTin?" The cartoon movie

And she said "anything" :o

Mean she don't like .aish aish :o

but then the ticket's seat are very down

soo we canceled to watch movie already :D

After that, we just wait the 2other guys :D

one called DISH-es,another..hmmmm let me think......OH!ALEX-endra o.o?I also don't know :D

when they're reached and met us .

we go find place to sit ,and i wanna try to talk to the 'new guy':D

But when i sit down and have a drink ,I just don't even know want to talk what to him?:o

He kinda EMO.

SUPERB DUBERD EMO .

EMONESS make you GAY :P

just kidding :D

Afterward, we try to go to KLCC's cinema see got the movie anot?

too bad, there also DONT HAVE! 

OMG :o 

I know she wanna watch :(

but the ticket sold out ish ish!! :(

Next time next time! :D

hmmmm,then walk walk walk and stop..........

I planning to go PETROSAINS :D

but when we get to the Entrance.

OMG,BUNCH OF MONKEYS! 

HAHA JUST KIDDING:P

lot of 'monkeys' are inside :P

soo we cancelled again!HAISSS

after thattt , that SUPER DUBERP EMO guy suddenly say BYE :o

and I don't know why he walked away so fast :o

Okay,never mind :D

I thought KLCC got Sakae Sushi :(

Tooo bad , Just got SUSHI KING at the FOODCOURT.

Then I just have to find food the cheapest in the foodcourt :D

CHICKEN DRUMSTICK RICE!RM7.00

KLCC's FOOD ! ARHG :o

Before that I got something happen.

when I talking with DISH , myloveone so careless step on one uncle foot

But then ,when I look at what happen,the FAT BASTARD starring at her just like hamsap lou !ARHG!:@

I was like automaticly go infront and stare at the FAT BASTARD o.o

I don't have that feeling before :D

After that :) hmmmm we go back ampang point and play bowling:D

but then myloveone and hers friend dont want play :D

because they need back early :D so cant play.

so they just watch me and dish play :DD

Awwwww She having camwhore with me :P <3

The First Photo <3

After the bowling,something happen again :o

We go McDonald and I going 'take away' a McD set for my dinner

soo i queue the line,when I talk with dish,The malay Kid Cut my line

Holy Shit! I just say "Excuse Me" with a Offended Act to tell him.

OMG,I never be soooooo like this before :o

What happen to me?

I'm being maturee?:P

nahhh just kidding hahaha

Hmmm I must PROTECT HER everywhere :D <3 

hmmmm that's alll :D

IF YOU REALLY BE PATIENT TO READ MY BLOG

THANK YOU SO MUCH!HAHA <3

 Hmmm If write this"..." will everyone try to read blog?:P

okay I TRY!

I LOVE YOU SOO MUCH MY DARLING :D <3

Who knows?:D

Who knows?

My mood still the same :D

Who knows?

I'm just acting :D

Who knows?

I'm scare to lost you :D

Hey Friends,I wish you can talk with me :)

But you can't :)

I know,i know you not happy nowadays :D

But today i saw you super hyper Active happy :D

So im not going to disturb haha

Every second,minute,day......Im still thinking about you

Im still checking your recently status....

You seen not happy :(

But I can't do anything for you :(

Because you dont even cares meat all :')

I look at the sky

The sky is blue

It a beautiful sky :)

Just like you :D

The time have came so fast :D

PMR is coming soon :)

But Im still Don't know what am I thinking?

but I wish i will get a good result :D

but maybe can't :)

Because,i also dont know what am i really thinking now 

Stupid brain ever haha

You know why everytime,I will ask you : What you doing?

Haha

Maybe you really dont know,I wanna know what you do recently :)

but all you told me is Gaming,Chating :)

No,you lie-ing ,You just unhappy these day :(

I can feel it you know?:(

You missing him I know :(

But Im not a selfish guy :D

last time,I asked you wanna cam?

You always said yes :D

But now,You said you busying :')

But i really miss your smile 

I wish you understand me

I wish you will miss me

I wish you care me 

I wish you will love me :')

In Fact,You NOT :D