Yo to myself

Hey Peeps!

I feel so forever alone for myself.

I wonder got anybody are reading my blog now lol.

by the way , im gonna write a story right now .

A girl , who I met .who I love . and she love me too .

I gave her first kiss , and she gave me too .

yeah , i love her a lot .

Everytime we hang out , with friends. we just act like friend .

I dont want too ,but she just ask for me to do that  .

after 11 months something , we finally can go out just both of us .

It's finally.

I hope that will come one day , so it's finally .

but just for once .

I miss those memories , i miss your kiss , i miss your hug ,i miss you're everything .

we already one month didn't met .

 You asked me don't meet you before your examination.

it's okay for me .

I can wait .

when we text , you ask me to wait .

okay, i wait . you want study or  what .I don't know .

but come on , you just can't find a day for accompany me?

when I need you , where are you?

when i miss you , where are you ?

when i tell you I love you , you didn't reply the same thing that I want.

you said you want chit-chat with your family.

you want stop texting.

come one, you just can't while text while chat ?

I know ,  your family is important than me , this is fact.

but please , i just want you accompany  me. 

We almost break up , because I'm so toilful to be like that.

so, I keep thinking negative  because of you .

I try to calm down that time .

so, I did it .

I try to positive .

I did it.

But just now, You make me unhappy because of one thing .

I ask you ,after your exam , can we hang out .

the first thing she say :yes .

Ohhhh i'm so happy , after that she say : with bunch of friends .

its okay . I'm okay with that .As least I can see you .

but after that , she say : but you can't touch .

I say : why ?Hold hand also can't ?

she say : Yeah , can't sorry.

I ask why again .

she said :I don't like .

dafuq?

This mean you don't like me to hold your hands ?

To hug you ?

include Kiss you?!

at the first time i go out with you , you don't let me hold your hands .

i tot you scared will let your friends see.

my Thought was wrong .

I'm sorry , that I hold your hands .

I'm sorry ,that I hugs you.

I'm sorry ,that I kiss you.

I dont want to let you know how I feel .

no.

I don't know how to let you know how I feel .

how I tell you ?

Hey I'm not happy because I can't touch you ?

I'm not happy because I can't hug you ,kiss you , hold your hands?

dafuq is this ?

No!I'm not happy is because , WE JUST LIKE A FRIEND .

I DON'T TO BE LIKE A FRIEND

WE'RE COUPLE.

WE CAN MEET IN ONE MONTH AT LEAST 10 TIMES.

WE CAN HAVE A LOT FUN TIMES TOGETHER .

WE CAN DO ANYTHING WE LIKES WE WANT.

but NOT .

we just like a friend text everyday .

when we talking on phone .

You say you're boring.

because of I keep asking you the same thing? or i don't know  ?

if its was like that ? okay i'm sorry for being so annoying .

I just want to talk more longer ,find something to talk , find some topic .

pulling longer the time for having the time with you .

if we close the conversation  , I'll just have to wait again.

waiting you to let me call you again .

Come on ,I don't want be like a friend .

It's make me feel so lonely .

It's make me feel like I lost a girlfriend .

I feel like crying .

 I hates those FEEL! 

Don't give me those feel please .

That time you asked me got go PESS IU day anot .

Yeah I got go .

And I ask you , who you going with?

BOYS' Friend

Fine .

last time, you go Pavillion ,I also going  ,but not going together and join together .

I ask who you going with  , you tell me you going with BOYS only .

Woah , BOYS , you didnt invited me plus just going with boys ?

After the day we at Pavillion , You call me , and I ask you got how many people theres?can i go find you ?

You told me one ,my heart start being pain .feel like heartbreak like that , maybe that is jealousy power ?

I ask to go find you , I'm worry because you're just you and one boy over there .

I don't want just you two over there .

so i wanna to find you , even my friends are here .

but you say : dont come ,I'm Serious .

F**k

Do you think I'm don't care about this !?

hell no .

After he go back , you can call me to find you right?

no , you didnt . you didnt tell me you go back home ady .

I feel like breaking up . But I don't want too .

this make me FUCKED UP everyday .

I'm done